I am soaking it up this year, not because I want gifts or to be pampered (well I do want to be pampered but that’s beside the point) I’m basking my own emotions about being a mother. This year I feel my most empowered. I feel strong, I have learned to let things slide, I feel fit, and I even feel sexy. I am giving my best effort in many areas of my life, and I’m feelin good being me.
Things I love about being a mother:
The smell of my son’s head
My daughter’s eyes
Snuggling with them after a nap
Snuggling with them during a nap
Our daily bike rides
My husband’s pride to tell others I made their gift
My 3 pm coffee break
Surprising my whole family with a spontaneous dance
Having a good laugh at no one’s expense
The glance my husband I give each other when our kids shock us with their actions or comments
Giggles coming from their bedroom/back seat/ playground
This morning I woke with such excitement. I creeped out of bed and made a big bowl of oatmeal, with a tbsp of almond butter, fresh strawberries and a boiled egg on the side. I skipped my coffee and drank plenty of water instead. This was my first official run and my first 10 kms, and I was so excited to get ready. I bought myself a new workout outfit, which paired with my Nike runners…Well, I definitely looked the part, but now was I able to pull it off?
My husband and the kids gave me all kisses goodbye as they dropped me off at the sky train station… and I felt naked. I had nothing but my phone and a $5 bill in my pocket. No diapers, no wipes, no purse, no wallet not even a jacket. There was this strange sense of energy on the train… everyone dressed in their white shirt to try and complete a goal. Those who look like the Vancouver Sun Run is a stroll around the park and those who look like they just might fall over because they didn’t sleep last night. We were all heading into the downtown core for one goal or another.
I met up with the Fitness On The Go Team. We got in line (I mean corral) and the enthusiasm was growing. Now all we had to do was wait… and wait… and wait. We could see the starting line a few blocks ahead the band were playing excellent music and the helicopter was in the air filming the thousands of runners. I was cold in the shade, I had to pee and my belly was starting to rumble. 1 hour and 15 minute after the first runners darted off… we finally crossed the starting line!!!The hardest part seemed to be the deeking the non runners. Mandy, a trainer from Fitness on the Go, ended up as my partner and we really our groove on. I felt good but started to get a bit tired around kilometre 7… shortly after that I saw my family there cheering me on from the sideline. Seeing their faces gave me a boost and by kilometre 9 I had developed a stitch in my side. Mandy talked me through it and we took it up a notch the last ½ a kilometre to the finish line. I crossed my first run ever with Mandy and Megan! Once I stopped running, the few negative thoughts and few aches and pains disappeared. I can’t believe I considered myself a non runner, and I ran that!! Fantastic!
My daughter also turned 4 this week. 4!?? My goodness, 4 years ago, I laboured for so many hours really not knowing what was ahead of me. The powerful feeling of accomplishment, the tireless nights, the worry, the feeling of confinement, the problems with breastfeeding, which pass to make way for new struggles and joys. Now this little lady has manners, she thinks for herself, she is creative, she cares for her brother, and she is independent and curious. Does this have anything to do with me??? I hope so, but I know so much of this is all about her. And I love her for it all.
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